bleh.

Don't really know what is going on lately, but I just feel like "bleh." So much drama over the last week with finding out all the lies and craziness that is April that I'm just left in a funk. I don't get a lot of the stuff that April did. She manipulated all of us into thinking that she needed the escape and the freedom, when the true picture of her situation was something that she had created all on her own. And after all that we did for her and all the neck that was stuck out and put on the line, she almost ran away with some loser on the internet that she'd never met in her real life. My feelings were hurt, but really I hurt much more for her 7 and 9-year old daughters. Insane.

Other than that, not too terribly much has been going on. But with all the distraction, I didn't really have much time to think about the slump I was falling into more and more each day. I've been declining this way for a while, but the empty progressed quite a bit this week. It's kind of different this time though because I haven't just broken down and I haven't had tons of sleepless nights. So maybe this time it will be different. I'm trying to be pro-active in recognizing that I feel out of it and do something about it. Just hard to fix what's wrong when you're not quite sure what it is. *shrug*

If I'm going to be in a funk, why can't it look like this?